Dieting is time consuming to say the least! I seem to be stuck at a comfortable weight for my body. It just likes moving back and forth between the same three pounds. Well, I'm tired of that! This weight was not my destination.
I'm not sure what my husband is thinking sometimes. He really wanted me to lose this weight but now it seems like he's sabotaging every effort. He says he isn't and that he doesn't even think about it when he shops, but lets just take a look at least nights dinner; potato salad, Johnsonville sweet sausages grilled with green pepper, hot dog buns, tortilla chips and salsa. Desert was Baby Ruth icecream.
I asked him why he bought the icecream and he said it was because he had remembered me asking for it for a recipe awhile back! A recipe a while back? Try Christmas! And what about those sausages? One of them alone was 270 calories! Now I have to admit the potato salad was my fault. I made my potato salad and its to die for. Do you know how hard it is to sit there and eat half a sausage with no bun, 1/4 c potato salad and no icecream? Well its hard.
After dinner I watched a movie with hubby and all I could think about was that Baby Ruth icecream. I eventually gave in and had a bowl of it; not just a tine bowl but three scoops! I was just tired of fighting the odds all the time. I ate three scoops and would have eaten more if I wouldn't have been full at that point. I was just mad about the whole diet thing.
Well the anger may have been a good thing. I have made some resolves to myself. I may not understand hubbys sabotage but if he wants to spend money on sausages then Im going to spend money on salmon or sushi or any other thing I want for my diet. The funny thing is that money isn't the issue. So then why don't I just buy the foods I want? This is going to sound strange but its because we are not in the habit of buying those foods. Mr Darling hates fish so we never buy it unless I personally go to the fish market and get it. And thats exactly whats going to happen from here on out. When the family eats chicken or turkey I'll eat it with them otherwise I'm going to have my beloved fish!
I'm also going to go to the Farmers Market here in town and purchase local produce. The season is cold and wet and not much is happening yet but when it does I am there! I have to put my diet and health first.
Now I'm going to have a long talk with hubby!