I have suddenly lost that ravenous appetite that plagued me for several weeks. I have no idea what that was all about. Sometimes I think I know my body and other times I have no idea how it will respond.
Im going to go ahead and tell you ladies what has been my biggest problem with weight loss the last 8-10 weeks. You see, since April I have been getting two cycles a month which means every 2 weeks Ive been going through the weight gain and bloat and hunger that is caused by a regular cycle. Now suddenly the middle of June nothing happened. Through July nothing happened. Finally 36 days later I get another monthly explanation point. By now they are no longer periods. Believe me! They are truly explanation points!
Yes, I am going through the big M. This is why women should be sure to lose their weight when they are still cycling normally and when nature can work with them.
One of the reasons I was so determined in January to do this was because I have been going through this mess for a couple of years now and I wanted the estrogen to help make my skin elastic enough to go back into place. I am determined that after losing 100 pounds I will not have to get surgery done to remove skin. I hate surgery on every level!
If I was going to have a prayer of avoiding surgery I would need to do this before menopause. Well here I am pushing the very limits. You younger ones are so, so lucky in this weight loss arena. I just want to encourage you all to lose the weight NOW and don't weight until 50 is knocking at your door like I did.
Well I'm not sure what inspired that little confession - probably the fact that I cant go to church this morning because I'm hemorrhaging had a little something to do with it. I am so upset that I cant go to church today. The whole week seems messed up when I cant make it. And if I don't go the kids cant go. I hate that!
This weight loss thing is not easy. I know I keep repeating this but this takes incredible perseverance! Really I am amazed that I haven't gained in the last couple of months. But something in me will not let me give up. I'm just hanging on determined to get through this.
And I do think I've broke through a barrier. I have been weighing consistently a pound to a pound a half less this week. Hopefully I am on my way again. Why, oh why didn't I do this ten years ago or even five years ago. Oh well, theres nothing I can do now but plow on and I will plow on! I am not looking back!!