I think this has been the hardest week Ive had on my diet since January when I began! I haven't been eating the wrong foods but my mind is just not where it belongs. I had that epiphany the other day about just how long a struggle I have and it sort of threw me. I feel like I'm adjusting once again. I do know that I darent let down my guard for a minute or the weight will come piling back on.
The last two days I have gone heavy on the raw veggies and the fruit. As a result I feel bloated. I'm usually not a raw fruit and vegetable eater. One thing that has come of dieting for all these weeks is that I no longer think chips when I want to relax.
Instead I think Triscuits or veggies dipped in hummus. I realized the change had taken place today when I was out and about. I was so hungry and the only thing I could think of was the crispy crunch of sugar peas with a touch of cold hummus. It was while I was savoring every taste of the peas and every garlicy bite of the mashed garbanzo beans that it hit me that not once had I even thought of taking care of this hunger with cookies or ice cream or chips! It was an eye opener to me.
Even though I consider this a hard week mentally, my mind is in a better place then I think it is.
Today I had fruit, laughing cow cheese, veggies, hummus and popcorn. I ate on that all day. At dinner I had half a toasted bun with three tablespoons of good old homemade sausage gravy on it. The warmth and solidness of the food comforted my soul.
I do think tomorrow I'm going to go heavier on the protein. I just get too hungry when I eat fruit and veggies. I crave the solidness of lean meats.
I don't know yet where this week will lead me weight wise but I do know that mentally I have crossed some challenging hurdles...with still more to cross in the near future.
Changing a lifestyle is a hard thing!