Sunday, May 18, 2008

New determination

I'm doing something new with my diet. This week I am beginning a paper journal of the foods I eat. I've been keeping it on Sparkpeople which is lovely but I want to see it on paper. I'm making my own journal from an art book with empty pages. Im decorating the pages with pictures from my magazines that make my heart happy. There's just something about a paper journal that blesses the soul and appeals to the writer woman in me.

I'm actually getting in much more water then I had been so that too makes me happy.

I had about two days this past week where I felt wandery and floaty; like I didn't quite know how to proceed on this arduous journey. The result, as I mentioned below, was a weight gain. I'm hoping if I journal every bite in my new journal it will help to get and keep me on track.

I'm also beginning an exercise video in the mornings. I cant begin to finish it or do all the moves correctly but I anticipate the day when I can go through the entire thing with ease! When that happens it will be lovely to look back on the days when I couldn't do more then ten minutes at a time!

I really don't know how to put this but reality has set in and I'm overwhelmed with the journey ahead. I have decided it is time for me to really focus and plan if I want to be successful. A journey to lose 100 pounds can not be undertaken in a half hearted approach. I'm making my health and weight loss the number one priority this summer. I must get fit and lose this weight if I want to enjoy my kids and be around to see them grow up.

I have a renewed focus and a renewed energy to get this job done. Already this summer I will be able to handle the heat and the work better then last summer. But the real joy will come next summer when I plan to be at my ideal weight. It's all about making this work one meal at a time.

I've done some serious soul searching and I really do feel like I am in the mode and mind frame to do this for the long term and beyond. My fat days are behind me. Every day takes me closer to my goal! I'm excited!


  1. My deciding moment was in November when my mom had her heart attack. She's doing well now. However, it was such a reality for me to know that my extra weight around my middle is increasing my risk factors for heart disease. I have been pleased with my results up until I got down to needing to loose less than 20 lbs. All of a sudden, it's become so much harder. I've splurged a bit on a personal trainer to teach me how to exercise specific to my goals, and I love it!

    I'm right beside you every step of the way. I know my soul searching was very eye opening for me and very, very emotional. Keep your eye on the prize!

  2. Great timing on this post! While praying this morning in church, it was like something just clicked for me. I realized I have GOT to get serious about losing this weight. Just like you said, half-hearted just isn't going to cut it!
    Thank you, thank you, thank you for the moral boost. It is so comforting knowing someone else is going through this :)
    Good luck on your renewal!!

  3. One meal at a time is a good way to look at it. I feel like if I blow a meal, the whole day is blown. But every low-calorie meal does detract from the high calorie I sound like I'm trying to convince myself?

    If that IS true, then none of us would have the excuse of putting off our diet til tomorrow...


Thank you for taking the time to encourage me on my journey! Your comment is appreciated!