I'm doing something new with my diet. This week I am beginning a paper journal of the foods I eat. I've been keeping it on Sparkpeople which is lovely but I want to see it on paper. I'm making my own journal from an art book with empty pages. Im decorating the pages with pictures from my magazines that make my heart happy. There's just something about a paper journal that blesses the soul and appeals to the writer woman in me.
I'm actually getting in much more water then I had been so that too makes me happy.
I had about two days this past week where I felt wandery and floaty; like I didn't quite know how to proceed on this arduous journey. The result, as I mentioned below, was a weight gain. I'm hoping if I journal every bite in my new journal it will help to get and keep me on track.
I'm also beginning an exercise video in the mornings. I cant begin to finish it or do all the moves correctly but I anticipate the day when I can go through the entire thing with ease! When that happens it will be lovely to look back on the days when I couldn't do more then ten minutes at a time!
I really don't know how to put this but reality has set in and I'm overwhelmed with the journey ahead. I have decided it is time for me to really focus and plan if I want to be successful. A journey to lose 100 pounds can not be undertaken in a half hearted approach. I'm making my health and weight loss the number one priority this summer. I must get fit and lose this weight if I want to enjoy my kids and be around to see them grow up.
I have a renewed focus and a renewed energy to get this job done. Already this summer I will be able to handle the heat and the work better then last summer. But the real joy will come next summer when I plan to be at my ideal weight. It's all about making this work one meal at a time.
I've done some serious soul searching and I really do feel like I am in the mode and mind frame to do this for the long term and beyond. My fat days are behind me. Every day takes me closer to my goal! I'm excited!